Using my blog to shed my own ‘lost’ bitches

Have you ever felt lost, without purpose, without real direction or clarity of what you should be doing and why?

As we hit the mid-year point of 2017, I am finding myself in that state of being – mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

Until yesterday, I had been sick in bed since a week ago Friday; hacking up my insides, combatting a temperature, and dealing with the aching bones of a hundred year old. The only bright side of the whole experience was the idea I would have some quiet time to lie still, think deeply, and consider where I am with my mid-year goals and where I am going for the second half of the year.

As of this morning, I am still confused, unclear, and lost.

I found myself unable to go deep, to consider the big picture, or even to visualize the small. I even used Oprah and Chorpra’s 21-Day Meditation Experience to ask myself the big and small questions of who I am, what I want, and what I don’t want.  They’re questions I ask myself often, and even have my clients ask themselves. But, I am blank, empty and void of focus regarding all of those questions.

One thing that became clear is I do have the blank white pages of this blog to dump my thoughts, ideas, and bitches… just as I have for so long with my journals, to work through those questions and more, and to use transparency, honesty, and brutal self-evaluation to find my way back. I know I will,  as I have been lost before… and it is often my own writing and dumping of my thoughts that helps me find myself again.

Feel free to follow along.

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